I’ve realized a couple things about myself over the last month or so. One was hard to face, but the other has given me a useful tool.
The first thing is this: I am not good at motivating myself. Left to my own devices I take too long to get out the door in the morning, I don’t stay focused at work, I take too many breaks, and I give in to the temptation to go home at a reasonable hour. However, as I’ve learned by doing some consulting work, when I’m part of a team it is the exact opposite. Without any overt pressure I can stay focused and productive for much longer. I’m being mentored by a wonderful man named Dan Trajman who comes by the Artisan’s Asylum to help people like me, and he tells me that this is fairly common, which does take some of the sting out of it.
Another thing Dan told me about the connection between the number of decisions one has to make in a day, and the quality of those decisions. I’ve been thinking about this one for a while, and it does help explain why I’ve been doing less well then I thought I’d be doing. Put simply, I’ve over-extended myself. For example, here’s what’s on my plate at the moment: finishing up these rewards, last year’s taxes, getting health insurance, getting my truck repaired, running the Maker programming track for a local convention (come to Arisia!), and starting another CNC-related venture (this time with partners!). I’m actively trying to shorten this list, but a lot of it I simply can’t abandon (this project, for example). Still, I’m looking to get help where I can, and as I chip away at it that list will get smaller. I just have to be careful not to add to it.